Some pictures from my 9 day stay in Puerto Vallarta,Mexico!
Oh wowie, seems like time keeps flying by, I love to write and stay in touch with everyone but of course sometimes thats hard. Lets see I think the last time I wrote on this was about 3 months ago, thats basically all summer!
This summer I have been super busy, where do I start? I went to Puerto Vallarta with Ujena Swimwear for one of their jams, had a blast! Cant wait to work with them again in Oct at Cabo! Stay tuned on more details for that :)I went out to San Fransico to work with Ujena mid August, did some studio shots on their products and toured the city, stayed with Catherine and Bob, and got to meet Jamie a model from LA that shot with us for the weekend. Looove it there! Wish there was more modeling and acting work out that way other wise I’d move out there in a heart beat. I really want to go back and explore the city some more when I have some time, love the feel and the energy of it. If I decided to go to college perphaphs maybe thats will I’ll go. After I left SF and fly right to LA where I ment Ryan and we have been staying in LA ever since, relaxing and working, hanging out and looking for apartments for our move in the fall. This trip was really suppose to be out birthday present to ourselfs (since we have the same birthday) so far its been pretty interesting thats for sure. We had an appt to look at one apartment today and lets just say we didnt make it inside haha, the area was beyond scary and ghetto, and the place was of course the worst looking one on the block, and they wanted 1600…hmm let me think about that one.. NO THANKS!
I haven’t really been shooting out here that much I shot once with Ryan out at Malibu for the day we were relaxing, took some bathinsuit beach shots that came out okay, nothing to glamrous. Shot with Mike Magers yesterday! Shot came out amaziiiiiing! Got to shoot at this awesome beach in Laguna, always wanted to go there after watching Laguna Beach and the Hills, totally different than what I thought it would be, but I still liked it and would love to go back some day.
I will keep you all posted on my adventures out here! I leave at the end of the month back to NYC! Stay well
So the past few days have been going pretty swell for me, and I guess you can say I am verrry happy about that =]. For example, I went to bed the other night praying, please god send my passport and my packages from Ujena before I have to go to LA. I was so stressed about it, I didnt want them to come when I left and have my dad over night them to me before I left for Mexico. Some of you are probably thinking well you cant leave the country without your passport anyway. Well yes you have a point there but since my passport was sent in wayy before my travel date, and it was the post offices fault the government was going to take care of the situation if need, probably with some federal letter or what not. I guess well never find out BECAUSE the next morning amen I open my door and theres my 2 packages from Ujena and my passport overnighted to me. Finally things were starting to go on track! I got my 3 bathin suits that I ordered wait til you see the images when Im done in Mexico! And two extra ones that were given to me as a gift which was awesome of them. I cant wait to go on this trip, I have been waiting almost 2 months, and its finally here. I guess I am going to be the baby on the staff but thats okay I dont mind. Drinking age in Mexico is what 16 or 18 ;) its all good hahah jk jk.
Then some more interesting news came later on yesterday, the main guy in charge of SuperStreet magazine contacted me and asked if I could come in today for a shoot with them to be put in there magazine, Awesome right?! wellll im in NYC and there in LA and I wont be in LA tillllll Friday sooo I had to pass =[ BUT its all good were working on a date/location/theme for next months issue so you better stay tuned!
So tonight I finally went shopping for my trip to Mexico at Target with my fasha. Lets just say it was pretty interesting seeing how I am in Long Island and of course Target/WalMart/ the mall are alllllllllllways packed and busy at any given day. Well today being 97 I was shocked to see so many people running around but then again like I said we are in Long Island. My dad is sick, he works out in the sun and I think coming into the AC he got a little virus =[ feel bad for him, so he was out of it the whole time shopping, while hes walking 10 steps behind me and im dodging shopping carts coming at me and people coming out of side aisles, the sign above me almost falling on me, the friggen bug spray self almost falling over because some kid got pushed into it ( hey i need bug spray anyway) it was alot to handle on my own let me tell you. AND NO ONE KNOWS WHERE ANYTHING IS YET THEY WORK THERE, gottta love that. All and all I got everything I needed but few last minute things I have to pick up tomorrow before I go in for a last minute fitting/shoot with my designer pal in NYC. Not looking forward to that either, I hate taking the train into the city its the worse then walking around with this heat and all the people ughh me no likey. THEN finally my flight is at 6:45 in the morning on friday, god I know who decided on that?? So that means I have to be at the airport around 330, no worries I live about 10 minutes tops from JFK, but I do hate traveling alone, it gets..well..lonely of course, and hard for someone like me 5’3 having to deal with everyone cutting in front of me and trying to take advanage of me. Like when I get on the plane and sit in the window sit and someone comes along and asks me to move because thats their seat ( ya it might be but are you reallly going to look out that window?) GOD thats the worse! when someone gets the window seat and they dont use all the great advantages it comes with! Oh like leaning against the window, putting your feet up between the wall and the persons chair, not having to worry about falling asleep on someone. I really hope I get a window seat, or like always I will sit in it anyway and put up a fight hahah Im sucha bitch I know but no Im really not. This one guy on my last flight not trying to be mean, 6’2 « 6’2 people was like “uh ya thats my seat?” Im like ya you cant take the aisle seat dude dont you want leg room? “Uh ya I like the window” okay so I give it to him, hahaha window shade goes down, hes all pushed up into a ball, okay bud you have fun like that for 5 hours straight.
Alright I gotta get packing! and get some last minute working out done!
So last night before I went to bed, I had this wonderful idea to wake up early and get alot of things that needed to be done..well..done. Ya well guess what it never happened. I have been doing this for three days straight. Lazy you may say? No depressed/beat/ and tired. How can I be tired when I havent really worked in three days? You got me beat, I have no energy and no modivation to do anything. Believe me I always have a plan for anything and love getting things done this is shocking to me too that I cant get it done. The depressing part is I dont care. Usually I care to the hilt x100 but lately Ive been slipping and I kind of like it. I guess you can say Im in a rut. A social rut, business rut, a life rut. You laugh and say Im only 19 I have my whole life to live I have no reason to be unhappy, that I dont know the meaning of stressed. Okay you got me for all you 20 year olds and older, I may not know the stress of alot of things, like running a real legit business, or raising a family, etc etc. But at 19 I think I’m pretty damn mature,motivated, and have great work ethics, blah blah balh. Im not bragging and Im not one to, if you know me this is true. You see to me I feel like Im not doing good enough for my age, that Im not getting to where I want to be fast enough. And as my dad would say to me ” Well Nina it takes time for things to build and happen, Rome wasnt built in a day.” Yaaaaaaa dad then how and why did it happen to all these other kid stars, right place at the right time? Could be right. You see I know I dont have talent, I noticed it growing up my whole life. When field day came for the 4-6th graders I was never good at running the mile non the less doing all the other activites it they had to offer. I played soccer because my friends did and I turned out to like it but I was never any good at it I was alright. I took art because I found it relaxing but give me a break next to all the other kids projects I looked like a I did mine with my eyes closed. Forget math,history, and science lets just say I skimmed by with Bs and I was happy with that. So what is my true talent? Taking good pictures? Please I hate when someone says that to me. ANYONE CAN MODEL. Alright not anyone but anyone can take a picture, yes some love the camera and some dont but taking pictures and being a model isnt a talent. At least not in my book. Who knows I guess Im just blabbing on and on about non sense and making my problems look so pitty, but I cant help it this is how I feel and I finally feel the need to talk to a skrink about it…yup you got it tumblr.com!
I guess you can say, Im getting burnt out and almost fed up of all of what Ive been doing, dont get me wrong I have a great support system, friends, family, and my supportors! But its hard doing everything yourself, from the bookings, to the clothes shopping, to the msgs, the traveling mostly by myself its starting to get to me, and I feel like its not paying off well or fast enough.
I guess I should be happy and excited right? Im leaving for mexico, the first time I ever been! With a major swimsuit company to work with them. Ya I really am Im honored to go and so happy to get away for a bit. But it would help if my passport came in 2 weeks ago like it was suppose to. It would help if my checks would come in from pervous jobs that I did a month ago so I wouldnt have to worry about money, It would help if **im sorry for all my male readers** I wasnt getting my period that week of course that Im going. Oh noooo work against Nina of course. You see its these little problems that really get to me and put me in this mood. Some of you will think of its not a big deal, well no your right my arm didnt blow off while I was walking to get chinese earlier, I didnt get in a car crash when I was going to the bank, and im not dying of a disease. But hey do you have to be? I just find it rather annoying the guy at the post office told me over a month ago when I wasnt doing my passport NOT to pay the extra 60 to rush it just to be safe. So stupid me listened to him and here I am 5 days before leaving for Mexico and still no passport. Of course I called and I had to expodite it 72 bucks extra to rush it. SOOOO were all praying and hoping it will be here by monday, IF not I have to go down to the city and deal with the fuckers there. Its like okay you got your 72 extra bucks get your fucking asses in gear and mail me the damn booklet so I can leave this joke of a country. Omg okay readers! dont get all patriotic on me, My opinion yes MINE, on MY tumblr blog is that this country isnt even that great, with the taxes and BS going on but Hey =] thats another blog.
So here I am sitting here at 9 oclock at night on a saturday by myself, while my dad goes out with hes friend to go have a guys night and I sit here….by myself….on a saturday…at 19.. whats wrong with this picture? Ill tell ya! Well for one I dont really have friends down in Long Island where I live I mean I did move here a year ago last June but I never really made friends, you see Im from Upstate Ny (Greenwich) whats that you ask? Dont bother googling it it wont come up. Just kidding! Its a lovely little one horse town just outside of Albany NY. So I would come down to LI every summer but in the process I would only hang out with one kid and that was Mike my little neighbor next door, we’ve known eachother since we were about 7 because of our families but became pals when I was about 14. Lets say the friendship lasted all the way up until 4 months ago, we bonded great as friends and romantically, dated for 2 years on and off but finally us being both Italian, me being a leo him a scriopio lets just say every little thing we fight about turns into a bigger deal that it really is. So right now were in one of our hating fights/fazes. Its the worse one yet, Ill tell ya that story in another blog also haha. So thats my story in why Im not out on a saturday. I do have 2 big suitcase with all my clothes and shoes all over my hallway, Ive been saying ill pack but I jsut keep kicking it around. I mean lets face it as soon as my dad left I laid on the floor, with my laptop promoted my fan page and updated my websites. Then I got the radio out jammed to some loud music for like 40 minutes, got tired and hot, In the back of my head the whole time I kept saying ”I gotta work out I gotta work out” got my work out ball out….and herre I am sitting in bed writing this! Lets hope I get my ass in gear to work out sometime tonight, I have eaten 4 bags of those little kiddy m&m bags ( remember I am going to mexico for a swimsuit company in a week). I think it will be more fun to watch a movie after this =]